Many things have been changing in my life recently and I thought I would share them with you. And the good thing is almost all of them are positive changes. They are related to work, food, comments, and family.
I am an excited and nervous all at the same time. I’ve got so much to do in the next couple of weeks – paperwork, projects, organization – that I feel overwhelmed but as I’ve learned over the last year and a half things usually work out for the best (or the way they need to) and that tasks are less difficult when you do them then when you are thinking about them.
Full Time Freelancing
Even though I haven’t fully resolved my computer problems, I have decided to take a chance and freelance full time. I gave notice at my day job and May 1st is my last day! I was going to leave at the beginning of the year but my ex got laid off and I didn’t know what would happen to our child support and my daughter lost her health insurance. The support amount didn’t get reduced by much but I decided that I would not rely on it as part of our income – I would earn it and then if we did receive the support I would save it. And I got my daughter health insurance through the state – it’s expensive but necessary. I also delayed leaving my day job because of my Mom passing away – I was too stunned to do much of anything.
Recently I’ve been getting so much work that I’ve had to turn it down or have too long of a turnaround time on the project. Between my day job, freelancing, and my family I have been working non-stop and getting very little rest. I can’t maintain this schedule for much longer, which also influenced my decision.
I also love the freelancing work – I can’t say this about many day jobs I’ve had. My current day job is also mindless and I feel like I’m just wasting my time when I am there. I took the job to replace one that was causing too much stress in my life and was not family friendly, but it was only supposed to be a temporary position and I’ve been there a year and a half! Of course, shortly after I started working there a number of things in my life fell apart so I was lucky to have a mindless position.
I’m not a 100% certain that this will work out but I figure that worst case scenario will be failing miserably and having to move to Vermont to live with my brothers, which certainly isn’t so bad. I feel confident though and at peace with my decision so I don’t think it will come to that. :-) I still need to get health and disability insurance for myself (how would I earn money if I injured my hands) but will easily be able to pay for it with the money that I will save in not paying for childcare.
I am leaving my daughter in after school care for the rest of the year and will still be sending her to full time day camp. I’ve already saved up for it and will give me the time to really get started with this without going directly from working full time to being with my daughter full time. Ultimately though, I will have a lot more time with her and will be able to be more involved in her life.
Freelancing will also work out better for me with the type of personality I have. I swing between high energy and focus and none at all. One day I will be incredibly focused and inspired and can work 18 hours and be incredibly productive. And on other days I am distracted and less creative. On those days I can focus more on research and home related issues. I can work around this rather than just try to force all of my work into a couple of hours a day.
Community Supported Agriculture
I finally purchased a share in a local farm and will be getting a food box once a week between June and November. I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time but finally did it. I bought a half vegetarian share, which includes maple granola, cheese, eggs, and produce. Everything is organic and is grown locally. The one thing that was keeping me from reducing my carbon footprint even further was purchasing food locally. Our footprint is currently 18 while the worldwide average is 11. The average U.S. one is about 54 so I’m doing really good but I want it to be even lower. Since I don’t own a car, getting food could be a chore and now I will only have to go to the park 3 blocks away once a week to get our staples for the week.
I can purchase bread at the farmer’s market at the same park. Another staple of mine is tofu. The market one block away sells tofu unpackaged and I discovered that it is made right here in Philadelphia so it only travels 37 blocks to reach me.
To round this out I am trying to join the food co-op that is also right up the street. They have, however, run into space and increased membership issues and have a waiting list. An exclusive co-op seems like an oxymoron to me. But, I am trying to find a way about the limitations.
Since my Mom lived in Northern Vermont and passed away in the winter, she could not be buried until the Spring. The ground is too frozen to dig up. This is a little frustrating as it prolongs the grief and mourning period. I don’t think I will ever stop missing her so much but I don’t feel like I can’t function like I did when it first happened. I will be going to Vermont next month for the burial and am hoping it doesn’t upset me too much.
Fortunately, my brother and I resolved our differences. We had a big fight about various house and financial issues and didn’t speak for 2 months – we are both so stubborn. I was upset because I felt like I had no family left so I’m glad we worked it out. Going up for the burial would have been really awkward too if we still weren’t speaking to each other. I think, however, that stressful times often cause these types of issues between family members.
I have been terrible at keeping up with all of your sites and I’m surprised sometimes that you all continue to be supportive and are visiting mine. I have just been SO busy that something had to give and that was one of them. I apologize for this and hope to begin visiting again in the next couple of weeks. I just appreciate all of you so much and I am really thankful for your ongoing support.
Well, I think that’s all for now. Wish me luck and send people who need help with WordPress my way :-)
photo credit: 2-Dog-Farm