This photo is of my friend Stan. At first, you might look at his t-shirt and think it means something crude. But, if you knew Stan, you wouldn’t think that. Stan is the best listener, the most positive, one of the happiest people I know. What’s for rent by the hour are his listening skills, and he won’t even charge you. Actually, he might even give you free coffee.
Stan works at my favorite coffee shop. I first got to know him last winter when I was going through the hardest part of my life that I’ve had so far. I was floundering, trying to get through each day and I’m sure I looked miserable. I would stop in to get coffee between work and picking up my daughter. Stan looked at me one day, pulled me aside, and started talking to me. At that point I didn’t really know him – I just knew he was one of the guys who worked there. He told me that it would get better. And he listened. I told him everything. And he listened.
Stan listening was probably the first step in me becoming more confident and believing in myself again. I didn’t happen immediately – that was January and now it is almost October – but I will be forever grateful.
So, what does this have to do with anything? Well, (Anti) Social Development is a little different. I’m excited and nervous and sometimes I still doubt myself. With some encouragement from others and belief in myself, I have decided to start freelancing and utilize some of my blogging, WordPress, technical and social media skills. There is now a portfolio of sites that I’ve worked on, a list of services, a new about page, and if you’re really bored, my resume.The blog is still the front page and everything looks basically the same except for the navigation categories, and some ads (I’m not sure how I feel about the big pink wrinkle cream ad). If you go to one of the other pages, the header, sidebar and footer are different than they are on the blog. (I’m thinking of writing an article on how to do this).
But I haven’t taken a total leap. I’ve started earning a little from this endeavor but not enough yet to leave my full time job. And right now, it’s hard. It’s like I have 3-4 jobs. It’s worth it though. It’s something I really want to do and I finally believe in myself enough to try
I still get the twinges of doubt though. What have I done? What will people think of me? Am I good enough? I just have to push those thoughts aside and tell myself that I can do it and that I am talented.
What began with a guy named Stan listening to me is now the new (Anti) Social Development.
So, tell me? Do you believe in yourself? Do you have a dream that you hesitate to realize? What do you really, really want to do?